Transcript: October 15, 2025 / Posted December 18
NOTE: We’ve landed back in North Carolina to experience a friend’s new retreat center and to celebrate my husband Mark’s birthday.
From a learning perspective, I am beginning to integrate recent experiences and set the intention to understand my path of service moving forward.
CAROL: I got the image of this energy that just—it’s like a big puff of air pushing into my system. It’s like a sprite, a very intense, joy-filled sprite, like a teenager.
What I’m hearing is that there are different stages and phases of life we go through. The phase of life where you’re just experiencing the world as a young child, discovering what you like and the influences around you—of course, on the soul level, you select the family and the situation into which you’re going to incarnate. Then, as you experience and get your sea legs, you begin to formulate how you are loved or how you are rejected. You’re going through this, and you’re still being guided by your parents, your elders, your siblings, and people around you who are influencing you. You’re starting to formulate what you’re going to do in the world, how you’re going to respond, how much of your will you’re going to exercise, how awake you are.
They’re really speaking to me about the fact that I was awake from the very beginning. The contrast between myself and my environment was dramatic, and my senses were heightened. When you have heightened senses, you’re experiencing the outer world in a very different way. Of course, my thing is I always wanted to get away from the outer noise—the intensity of the anger, the unhappiness, and the undertow of what was happening. Yet others (I’m sure my siblings, for instance) weren’t experiencing that. They were experiencing whatever they were experiencing in their own reality.
At some point, a soul has to self-actualize. If you don’t self-actualize, you just become fodder for anything else that’s going to come your way—anything that’s going to pounce on you, use you, abuse you, negate you, use you as a commodity, all of those lower vibrational qualities—because you’re not self-actualizing. You’re not standing up and claiming and infusing and working on bringing in the embodiment of the higher soul light that you represent.
They’re saying it took me well into my 40s and 50s to fully self-actualize. I’m not saying I’m fully self-actualized, but to cross that threshold—everyone starts to cross a threshold of awareness. As an embodied one, I’m really speaking about the higher soul light that guides us. Once you cross the threshold, we each have certain things that we decide we’re constantly discerning. We’re continuing because we need to be living in this world, the relative world, while at the same time we’re trying to make sense of how we are to express our essence fully. Because of the tribal part of ourselves, we’re still trying to fit in.
They’re saying that I have been working on the finer nuances of “fitting in,” and I gravitated away from trying to fit into my birth family dynamics. I recognize that it has been a learning pattern, and I can truly love my other family members as they are, without needing to try to fit in or prove myself. But what has happened is I have gravitated to my light family, and I’ve transferred that sort of tribal oneness, belonging, and acceptance to them—to various individuals and to them as a collective. Yet we’re all works in process. We all have varying degrees of our tribal dynamics, even as we are in the most joyful, beautiful, aligned state of oneness when we’re together.
What they’re saying is, from this past experience, I walked away from the Crestone event feeling incredibly peaceful and joyful. I had such a great time visiting, going up on the roof of our house there, looking at the stars, and experiencing all the learning that took place between Tahoe and Crestone. Even though in Tahoe I experienced this wall of anger coming at me as a projection, I recognized, “Oh, that was the human tribal stuff that I grew up in, and that is still, to a certain extent, working its way out of my field.”
I was really proud of myself that, in that high state, I didn’t allow that energy to penetrate my field. But as I was coming out of it, the little girl part of myself was processing out: How can a person even treat me that way when I’m not that person at all? It’s the difference between being in your fully empowered state versus coming back into your human tribal dynamics. I thought I processed that out very quickly. I had a little ten-minute cry in the middle of the night. Finally, I just said to myself, “I just need to cry this out.” [Speaking to Mark] You were sound asleep, and I got it out of my system. I let my body’s consciousness do its thing, and then I was done. I felt like I had some perspective.
Then we went on to Crestone, and Crestone was so joyful. The whole experience to me was very joyful, even as I was organizing support for our dear friend who had just lost someone she really deeply cares about. There was going to be a ripple in the field from that dynamic. What the guides are saying is I’m now approaching family dynamics from the other side of the spectrum, where I’m not going to remove myself but immerse myself in this family—because this is my light family by design. It’s what I have come here to recognize and to immerse myself in, because this is what we’re doing: we are seeding light around the planet.
As we’re doing this, we’re getting into the minutiae of what it means to clear distortion out of the field without projecting wrongdoing at other people. In that sense, I’ve crossed the threshold. Yet you still have to apply the same skill sets to whatever you’re being challenged about. They’re telling me that my role in this is to hold sacred space for others so they can find their own place of homeostasis and make sense of what is and what is presenting.
It’s the entrainment process: What did you really experience, and how were you triggered? What does that mean? Is that about that person, or is that about what’s inside of me? It’s a higher waveform using the same skill sets that I’ve learned over the years to entrain to a higher frequency—without having an attachment to the outcome.
That’s what I’ve been feeling over the last couple of days, especially: that feeling of deep inner peace that I felt over those two experiences going into North Carolina and then here. Getting zinged again was very interesting. Just actively being very present, listening to what needed to be cleared, and then saying, “I’m sorry that you felt that way”—and then it was done. The human part of ourselves just wants to be heard and acknowledged that we feel a certain way.
Carol serves as a seer. empathic intuitive, and guide. She shares God’s love and grace to help others transform. www.carolfitzpatrick.com Global mission: Sustainable Oneness Spiritual Alliance and the Centers for Planetary Awakening: www.sustainableoneness.org/
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